dun reli feel gud tis few day..
even is my birthday, or christmas..
i dun feel gud..
missing smtg..

waiting 4 sumthg
sumthg tat i will nvr get it..
try 2 4get, but failed..

i thought i cn, i cnt..
wat it promise, it does nt kip it..

time to let go..

random

quite lazy 2 post pangkor trip day 2..
erm.. mayb i will post it, when i wan 2 write.. anyways, u all cn view it from houreyn blog too, he write it jor..

erm.. nw wat should i write leh?
lets write bout tis few day..
ytd when my dad fetch me.. guess hu is in d car..
omg.. a uncle sit at d front sit..
he is..... ETRON'S bro.. omg..
he is so talkative.. i thk, he talk alot..
N he smoke.. i hate smoker..

tats part of ytd...

then 2day..
went badm vf my classmate..
gt sukfun, li yong, jin liang, ken soon, n my di di (houreyn)
all of them late again..
my di di nid 2 take smtg so he late..
suk fun dun noe y late, 4 get ask
liyong gt msg me, say he will b late
but ken Ko n jin liang veli geng d..
ken ko go yum cha, tats y late..
wat da.. he go yum cha woh..
i din even take my breakfast jiu go liao, i scare i will late.. then he tell me, he go yum cha..
tat jin liang even worst.. v say jor 10am, then i reach there by 10, no1 there, i call jin liang..
" i still at hum" tis is d ans i get...
Y our class always late d ar???

erm.. after badm, me, my di di, li yong n jin liang went 2 a restoran 2 hav our lunch..
"ma bo" surpose 2 b d 'ma bo' bhind jj, but it close..
then v go 'my point', close too..
wat hapen 2day ar, y every shop close geh??

in d end.. v dcide 2 go bak near jj there d 'ma bo'
hou reyn's dad working there.. so, he recom us go there..
erm.. nt bad.. quite nice d dishes...
4 of us, 3 dishes.. about $40

after tat, 4 of us go jj buy ticket 4 avatar..
v bought it.. avatar, 24thdec...
it cost 66$, i pay 4 it, tats y, i bankrupt d..
4 of us plan 2 watch mv d.. but full hse..
so v change our plan 2 kbox..
again kbox..
i oso dun noe tis week hw mani time i go 4 kbox..
but i noe mani jek...
i go untill d waitress oso noe me jor.. so paiseh la..
but 2day reli song.. veli fun ar

after tat, v have mc.d ice-cream.. yummy..
erm.. then my di di drive me 2 bus stop at town..
he reli veli funny.. hapi 2 hav tis di di.. hehe ^^

tats all 4 2day, my dad scold d..

tis few day hav 2 b guai lui.. if nt i cnt go kl tis weekend..
i haven ask my mum, god bless me, hope she allow me la..

射手座

射手座人的内心不是外表看上 去那么乐观的，因为喜欢看的远，容易担忧的事情也就多，在他们的字典里，即使现在好，也不一定代表未来好，有时候很多人觉得很好的一个工作或一个伴侣，他 们很轻易的就会放弃掉，可能只是因为一个毫不起眼的小原因。所以，这样的外在表现，就让人们觉得他们不喜欢被某件事情或某个人束缚住，追求自由的，没有压 力的感觉。

现实：常说射手座是追求梦想的人，但往往忽略了他们现实的一面，算计起来不会比处女座差哦，只是更高明更隐藏罢了。射手座人的梦想是必须建立在现实的基础 上的，一般他们很少谈及自己的梦想，而是实际的去做一些向梦想靠拢的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，决不会多花一点工夫。所以有时候射手座也容易给人耍 小聪明的感觉。可是，不得不承认他们完成的还满不错。也许终其一生，他们都在考虑怎么巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去达到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座 看上去让人们会觉得很懒，但是其实他们的大脑可没有停下过思考现实的事情。

拒绝低俗：几乎所有的射手座内心都是骄傲的，其程度绝不亚于狮子座。只不过他们不会显现在脸上，外在的表现总是随和的，恰当的。可是内在有着极强的自尊 心，敏感也情绪化。因为射手座人心中是骄傲的，所以他们拒绝低俗，不喜欢任何俗气的、粗鲁的事或人。如果可以，他们希望一切有关的事物，都是优雅的、高尚 的，值得品味的。而真正能让他们觉得值得交朋友或谈恋爱的人是很少的，虽然表面上他们是很随和的。

多情：很多人说射手座多情，尤其是男性。其实在射手座人的心目中，对于爱情确实有理想化的倾向，和他们谈恋爱，是一件高难度的事情。他们非常讨厌俗气的 人，所以你不能很物质或喜欢谈钱，但是他们又很现实，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必须有一定的实力。物质与精神，你必须平衡的刚刚好，才让他们觉得你值 得去爱。或者，你有足够的神秘感，可以让他们不知道你的缺点在哪里，而盲目的爱你。一般，当然是没有完美无缺的人的，所以，可能象金牛座这样永远会让射手 感觉捉摸不透的闷闷的人，会非常吸引他们；或者象双子那样，足够机智，懂得察言观色，捕捉他们的情绪，才会让他们感觉到爱情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式 是，第一阶段，你们还不熟悉，他（她）爱上了你，非常热情。第二阶段，你们逐渐熟悉，而他（她）开始龟毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，无论是背地里还是当面。如果你有幸通过他（她）的挑剔过程，基本挑剔出的毛病为零或者你把缺点保密的非常 好；那么进入第三阶段，他们就又是忠诚和热情的爱人了。但是基本能通过第二阶段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一说。其实射手对恋人的挑剔，是源于对爱情的 挑剔，对丧失自由感的恐惧。

射手座人的人生，往往是幸运的，因为他们是聪慧的、明朗的、通透的。与众不同，也许是他们终生追求的梦想，希望每一个射手人，可以找到他们的梦想！

人人都说射手座是感情的骗子，对爱情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心与冲满欲望的象征。朋友们…你们了解射手座最真实的一面吗？

射手座是大孩子，天真与善良，遇到爱情时，可能让人感觉不认真，付出的比谁都少。可是，知道吗？射手座很想爱，却也很怕爱！刚开始他们只是慢慢的付出，谨 慎的爱，好怕自己会受伤。可是在一句一句的爱，一天一天的相处下，射手座把带刺的防备丢掉，开始不顾一切的去爱他们所爱的人，在别人眼中，只是射手座为了 达到某种目的而作的行动。可射手座不介意，他会在自己幸福的想象中陶醉，希望对方能感受自己的爱，想对方觉得与自己一齐是幸福的。

在射手座爱上了一个人，他会把自己放到最后。有苦自己承担，可能会因为吵了一场小架而不开心，却也是最快认错，无论谁的错，他们都会包容，知道吗？射手座 会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛，会因为你的一句话付出很多。他们爱玩，在玩的同时，也希望把那一份好心情带给你，射手座是乐观的。

人们总觉得射手座的世界很快乐，可是呢？射手座难过时没有人知道，他不想让别人可怜自己，射手座不坚强，可是很善良。在你难过时哄你开心，让你有依靠，分 手后，他会哭者去想属于你们俩幸福的回忆，也不想爱的人因为同情而勉强和他一齐。他比谁都希望自己爱的人快乐幸福，却常常忽略了自己，全身都是伤也笑着告 诉你，我很好不用担心。

在所有人看到他的笑容以为他没事，却不知道失恋对射手座有多大伤害，华丽的外表下有一颗脆弱的需要别人了解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一点关心，心思细 腻的射手座会记得你对他的好，把自己的爱毫无保留的送给你，射手座是不被了解的，可他们不会怨谁。他们会傻傻的认为，让我承担吧，别让别人也受到伤害。所 以，不要让快乐的射手座痛苦，别让他们最有魅力的笑容成为掩饰痛苦的伪装，认真爱射手座。你会知道射手座的爱，是充满泪水的…

i get it from my mail.. sum1 send it to me, i nt sure is it 100% correct, jus wan 2 share it..

sad, disappointed, frustrated, tired...

when cn i get rid of tis family..
i m reli veli tired...

dad, mom, i m soli 4 saying so..
but i reli tired of all tis stuff...

mayb 1day, i will leave..

date: 14.12.2009

location: pangkor

8.30am, met at d shell petrol station,
i thk i m late, coz my bro say no nid 2 go so early, veli near jek..
so, in d end, i thk i late 4 few min, luckily no1 reliase it.. hehe..

then, i collect $$ from them 4 d food, if nt i reli bankrupt d.. but i m bankrupt nw.. hehe
ah fok was late.. late comer, lukily he reach in d last min, if nt.. v jau charm lo ( cn u imagine, sitting in a bus without air-con from ipoh 2 lumut, it needs around 2 hours)
i sit vf xin yi... xin yi sit bside 2 window, OMG d curtain was so 'clean'.. haha, xin yi so scare bout it.. haha... here sum pic v take in d bus..

she oli will b silent when she slp.. aiya, they should sit 2gether...

hoe hoe is slping.. n dreaming bout his hong kong drama...


head of VAD7, head of librarian, head of monitor...
nt bad ar.. all head..

our bus is 9am, i thk, i nt so sure bout it.. cnt rmb...
reach lumut around 11am gua, then buy ticket 4 ferry,
after tat, lunch at KFC.. haha, our luggage reli mani(X10)
4 d 1st time i c so muc of luggage, it jus 3days 2 nites, 12 person.. but our luggage jus lik 30 person..

smtg hapen in KFC..
OMG, suk fun lost her purse..
is it in her bag, or pocket?
ans: nup
so, some of us, help her 2 find it.. sum wait in d KFC
me, pei2, xin yi n sukfun walk bak n search 4 her purse..
then terwei n tham try 2 go bak 2 d bus station n c is it in d bus..
too bad, d bus has gone...
so, in d end, i called my dad, ask him go 2 d bus station in ipoh 2 check isit in d bus..
luckily, my dad found it in d bus.. hehe..
i noe my dad is nt so free at time,
sorry ya, dad n 10x so muc..

another incident, terwei n tham d 3$ punya chicken.. haha..

tat fun..

surpose 2 b 1.30pm d ferry. but v r late..
so, it is 2pm...
it is a yellow ferry, nt gud d ferry.. cnt go out n hav a luk.. so bored la, siting inside...
so, i take sum photo..

here there r..

after 1/2 hour...
hurray, v finally reach pangkor la... wakakaka..
1st destination..
CORAL BAY RESORT..
1st event..
explore d resort..

erm, nt bad, d swiming pool quite bid, i lik it..

a fountain at d centre of swimming pool


d apartment oso nt bad..
3room, 1 living hall, 1 'kitchen' (a kitchen vf rak oli, without anythg), 4 air-con, 1 refi..
erm, nt bad d la..

then after settle all our luggage n food..
v dcide go 2 swiming
wah.. so song..
i lik d swimming pool.. haha
v play at d swimming pool, terwei n tham were push into d swimming pool.. haha, lik it..

nite, having steamboat..
have 2 prepared 4 them...

after d steamboat, every1 is so full..
they cnt even fin it...

so, v hav a nite walk at d beach

n take sum pic

12 of us..


omg, his leg gone...


bbq.. cn u c wat is it?
ans: prawns

hey, wats liyong expression ar...

after beach, bak 2 our 'home', then they continue vf their supper..
then, every1 din slp, v blow water, except houreyn n hou hou n yi xuan...
others, sit at d living hall n blow water..
it almost float...
at 1st, v dicide nt 2 slp..
but oli pei2 n tham n jin liang make it..
others all slp..
included me.. hehe..

2 be continue...

the last

i always b d last 2 noe bout it..
no matter, i m d last...

he nvr tell me, heartbroken..
always get 2 noe by others ways,
he nvr tell me wat hapen..
even as a frenz, he choose nt 2 tell me...

:)

outing

tis few days, wat i did?
sun i went 2 church, vf my grandpa, i fall aslp, i m so sorry, but i reli cnt stand it..
tis few days, i cnt slp well..

then, mon i went 2 tt.. 2 and 1/2 hours tt math, but i slp for 2 hours..
mr.goh, i m sorry.. but i reli slpy.. cnt slp in d nite..
at nite, went 2 'simpang tiga' hav dinner vf my family..
all spicy food, indonesia food, my aunt lik it, coz she from indonesia..
after dinner, went 2 kopitiam vf yuen, sum, anne n tay..
play card, discuss bout d football game on thurs..

then tues, surpose 2 hav driving lesson in d morning, but d uncle suddenly said cnt have it..
wat d.. bcoz of him, i nid 2 wake up at 6.30AM, then i wait d half hour, he oli tell me he cnt make it.. wat da..
so, i went earlier 4 badminton vf yuen they all..
8-12am, 4 hours, but act v jus play d 2 hours, then v play poker 4 another 2 hours..
so funny, badm bcum poker card..
after tat, v went 2 stadium n hav our lunch...
most of d store din open..
i drink soya vf melon.. nice..
after tat, sum fetch me bk 2 skul, n my dad fetch me at skul...

erm..wed, tat mean 2day..
went bak 2 skul lib.. giv d sample 2 peiyen..
n i rushing vf my muet hmk..
i was so tired.. after fin 1 essay, i slp...
all upper six is studying, but i slp there, they sure wish 2 be lik me..
i m so sorry, i noe i shouldnt slp infront of u all..
when i wake up.. they all start 2 move from lib 2 their exam hall...
wat cn i do, is wishing them all d best n gud luck..
then i cont vf my hmk.. i fin it b4 4pm, then i ask peiyen acc me 2 parade 4 lunch..
i hav a starbucks mocha n cheese cake..
tis few day, i m nt reli in d mood, so i nid 2 eat smtg 2 make me hapi..
although it is a bit expensive.. but nvm la, once awhile..
then went 2 sub, wish 2 c hu is d junior tat make peiyen so angry,
even i order her favour-cheese cake, she oso din eat muc..
but i still cnt c hu is d guy..
she is angry vf her junior..a veli rich d junior..
wish her gud luck... hehe..
then went 2 etude hse.. suki went 2 kl 4 training again.. a bit sad, cnt c her..
joe-l is there, she say, i grow fat d..
T.T sad.. every1 oso say so.. cnt d.. i mus exersice.. gym..
asking xinyi out 4 gym..
i bought sum masks n d crystal peeling..( tats nt me, it is d name of d product)
after tat, bak 2 skul, then i called my dad fetch me..

he ask me went 4 driving.. he teach..
but do u noe wat car i drove? MERCEDES...
so freak, but nt bad..
* i scare my dad, he thought i will hit d car, but i din.. haha...
aiyo, tats r still a lot space la, dad

tats all 4 tis few days..

waiting nxt mon 2 cum.. hehe ^^

i watch d video..
n again it reminds me sumthg tat make my heart broken..

again, the heart still pain even it past d almost 1month..

i miss _ _ _

射手座

射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。

她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。

你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。　
她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，
她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。
她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情. 她不想痛，也就懒得去 恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。

她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又 拒绝不了的事，
她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。
她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太 脆弱。
她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。
只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒 不侵的人。　

别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的
她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。

她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自 由。
她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她 一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫 自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。

千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。
你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要 压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。
那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，
你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离 开。

她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。
不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。
当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静 的，
她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。
因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧 郁.　

她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。
在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。

你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童 话里走出来的天使。
但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。
她只有在午夜无人的时 候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。

你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

这就是射手座...

to those anonymous,

i thk i noe hu u all r,
u dun wan tell hu u r,
tats ok..
i dun wan 2 bother anymore d..
i m tired of all tis stuff d..

ya, i m keeping a distance vf u all..
i noe it.. do i wish to do so?
i thk i m nt, but i dunnoe y..
i jus cnt break through d wall..

wat had hapen is d past, past tense..
i try 2 4get it..
if cn, i wish 2 vanish tat part of memories..

i will try, i m trying..
mayb u all din feel it..
its ok...

rita, she is my frenz too..
she noe wat hapen btw me n tat gal..
mayb u all dun noe wat hapen.. or
mayb u all agree vf tat gal..
i dun noe..
wat i noe is, rita is my frenz..
u all may thk she try 2 spoilt our friendship..
but i cn wan 2 let u noe, she din't..
so, pls stop it..

jus lik wat i write in my previous post..
i shouldnt post it out..
if i dint, there will nt b so muc problems..

v still frenz, i noe..
u all jus try 2 help me, i noe it..
tis is nt ur problem, nt rita's problem
but me..

time will help me, i wish..

Rita,
sorry.. bside sorry, it still sorry..
i shouldnt post tat out..
if i nvr post it out.. no1 will left any comments..
then there will be ntg hapen..

i noe u din lik her too..
wat she did, oli both of us noe it..
so, i understand it..
tat comment u left at 1st..
i noe u mayb angry or jus joking..
i understand it.. coz i noe wat had hapen..

i din blame anythg, but myself..
4 posting such a stupid story...
i jus wan 2 express myself.. n
tell u all wat happen tat nite..
but i dun noe tis will hapen..

i m tired, perhaps frustrated..
i noe, u too..

u stopped, i noe..
u try 2 help me, i noe it..
10x, u always my frenz..

i m sorry 4 wat i hav did 2 u..
i m sorry..

pls...

cn u all pls stop it?
i noe u all care bout me..

but do u all thk b4, i post it out is jus 2 express myself..
freedom, u ask me 2 post tis story out...
do u thk i wish all tis sort of thg hapen?

i reli regret...
i wish i dint post it out..
mayb if i dun post it out, tis will nt hapen..
if i din post it out, all of u will nt geting hurt..

i m sorry..

truth

wat is d truth?
i dun noe..
any1 noe d reason,
oli he noe d reason.. ( i thk)

nid 2 concentrate on study..
is it d truth?
i hope it is..

but i thk there other reasons..

Anonymous n freedom

i noe u all r them..
i dun noe hu u r,
but i noe u r 1 of them..

jus lik wat u all say,
mayb tis is my pro..

but 4 me, it is hard 2 do it..
it is nt as easy as wat v say..

i try, but i failed..
mayb u all thk i din try b4,
but u jus dun noe it..

i had changed, i noe..
i m no longer d puiyun in d pass..

i dun even rmb hw is d gal name puiyun being..
since tat day, i choose 2 4get tis gal..
tis make me feel safe...
at least, i cn get some hapiness..

Rita, she is my frenz too,
i noe u all may nt lik her,
coz u thk she distroying our friendship..
but act she dint,
d pro is nt vf her neither u all..

but myself

time 2 4get...

i cut my hair d..
veli short
but still acceptable,
i thk..

i thk alot in tis few day..
nw is d time 2 4get
4get those thg tat make me unhapi..
other than 4get,
i cnt thk a beta way 2 make us fel beta,
but is it so easy 2 4get?
i dun thk so, i tried b4..
but i failed..

nw,
i gv me n u a 2nd chance
d memories btw us, will lik d hair i cut
get away from me..

九年， 从小学进入这个球队到现在已经有九年了。 这九年，对我来说并不长， 可是也不短。 九年的时光对某些人来说， 或许是很长... 但对我来说， 一点也不长， 甚至觉得不够长，不够多。 这九年的时间， 让我得到了与她们的友情。

让我舍不得放弃，离开球队的也是这份友情。 曾经， 我觉得很累， 身心都很累。每天睡醒时，都发现眼角边的泪痕， 到底是梦里哭， 还是睡前哭的？谁晓得...

曾经时间， 每个training我都迟到， 对这个球队已经感到厌倦了。 努力了这么多年，什么也没有，剩下的就只有这份友情。

但， 现在的我开始怀疑这份友谊的真实性有多少？100%？ 50%？ 又或许更少...
她们真的是好朋友？一次又一次的相信... 一次又一次的背叛... 一次又一次的欺骗...

我应该相信她们吗？还是让现在的这样成为我们的终点？

10x

10x alot, guys n gals..
i ntg,
dun worry..

10x 4 caring,
i better d..
he is nt my everythg,
bside him,
i still having mani thg...

i din blame him or hate him..
i noe tis is d rules of d game..
i lose but i dun lost anythg..
i stil d same.. nt muc diff
mayb d diff is jus d status..
in a relationship >> single

i lose 2 him..
tis is a game..

in a game,
there always a winner n a loser..

survivor..

1day passed, n i still survive..
should i hapi?
but still i cnt smile..
i thought i will b ntg..
it nvr a big deal 4 me..
but it seems lik lost of control tis time..

sit bside him..
dun noe hw 2 express.. everythg is different..
is my problem or his? i dun noe..
wat should i do?

isit impossible 4 a couple 2 b frenz after they break up?

lies

u lies..
untrustable..

wat u say, u failed 2 do it..
u lies..

draft

*another 2 draft in my phone..

8.11.09
sat nite..
he changed..
i reliased it long ago, but i jus ingore it..
i tel myself..
u jus tired, u wan 2 play game..
u lik 2 play game..
i try 2 ingore it..

v use 2 chat whole nite..
bt 4 d past few weeks, v seldom call..
veli tired.. d reason..
even msg oso getting less n less..

u bcing vf ur class..
bio trip, dance, bbq..
i kep telling myself, u r bcing jek..
everythg will bk 2 normal soon..
untill sum1 told me,
there is a gal lik u, n veli close vf u..
i told u,
but u say it is impossible..

but tis is wat happened...
u say u lik her b4.. but nw ntg..
at 1st u din tell hu is her, but i guess is her...
i asked mani times, u finally said..
from tat moment, my heartbroken..
i cry silently..i was at restoran tat time..
luckily i make up..
it help me 2 cover my tear, i tried 2 hold it..
but i failed..

9.11.2009
i think whole nite, i din slp...
i will kept my promise, but gv me sum time..
i m nt angry or wat..
but pain n scare..
u say u ntg..u say u stil luv me..
but wat i feel is diff..
u r nt d dear i noe..my dear wun b lik tat..
do u noe u changed..

我不配

这街上太拥挤

太多人有秘密

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪

在还原那场雨

这巷弄太过弯曲 走不回故事里

这日子不再绿

又斑驳了几句

剩下搬空回忆的我 在大房子里

电影院的座椅

隔遥远的距离

感情没有对手戏 你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于

描述我如何爱你

你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉 已经不对

我努力在挽回

一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给

你嘟嘴 许的愿望 很卑微 在妥协

是我忽略 你不过要人陪

这感觉 已经不对

我最后才了解

一页页 不忍翻阅的情节
你好累 你默背
为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴

而我心碎 你受罪
你的美 我不配

这街上太拥挤

太多人有秘密

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪

在还原那场雨

这巷弄太过弯曲 走不回故事里

这日子不再绿

又斑驳了几句

剩下搬空回忆的我 在大房子里

电影院的座椅

隔遥远的距离

感情没有对手戏 你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于

描述我如何爱你

你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉 已经不对

我努力在挽回

一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给

你嘟嘴 许的愿望 很卑微 在妥协

是我忽略　你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对

我最后才了解

一页页 不忍翻阅的情节
你好累 你默背
为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴

而我心碎 你受罪
你的美 我不配

这感觉 已经不对

我努力在挽回

一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给

你嘟嘴 许的愿望 很卑微 在妥协

是我忽略 你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对

我最后才了解

一页页 不忍翻阅的情节
你好累 你默背
为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴

而我心碎 你受罪
你的美 我不配

退后

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后 并没有 更自由
酸酸的空气 嗅出我们的距离
一幕最新的结局 像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记 榨干了回忆
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去 被算是真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情 粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后 并没有 更自由
酸酸的空气 嗅出我们的距离
一幕最新的结局 像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记 榨干了回忆
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去 被算是真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情 粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

想太多

你笑着说
她是朋友

但你眼中太温柔

我的不安
那么沉重

只有你不懂

她霸占了你的心中

属于我的角落

所以你说 我们
不是你和我

是我想太多
你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多
我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

她霸占了 你的心中

属于我的角落

所以你说 我们
不是你和我

是我想太多
你总这样说

但你却没有 真的心疼我

是我想太多
我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么

虽然你不说
都是错在我

太晚我才懂
爱了你太多

是我想太多
你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多
我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

wat u say.. jus a lie..
wat u promise.. jus empty promise..

1 week for both of us...
act wats d 1 week for?
i dun noe..
i oredi noe d ans..
so wat is d 1 weeks for?

back

my com finally bak..
virus.. it takes my 40 bucks..
omg.. hav 2 on diet 4 1 week, i thk..

my heart broken...
totally broken..

nw i wish 2 use %#^&&*
i m sorry.. i noe it is rude, but..
i hav plenty thg 2 say...
but my com haven bk yet, cc even slower than turtle..
dun noe wat cacat cc isit...

my heart reli pain..
betray..
isit consider as betray? i dun noe..
plenty thg 2 say.. mani thg hapen..
n worst, i dun noe wat 2 do..

perhaps i will blog it when my com return..
it is 2 slow at cc.. beh tahan..

*wat should i do 2 save both of us, my heart broken..

*i wrote tis few day ago.. com is repairing, so i draft it in my hp

(a)

i hurt mine n his...

it is broken nw..

it is reli pain..

do he noe it..

he is d 1st guy make me feel so..

(b)

hw deep i love u?

i wish i din love u b4..

at least i wun b suffering

u r a gud guy,

perhaps u r excellent

i fel lik i m nt deserve 2 get u, luv u...

i scare 1day u will found a better gal

n drop me..

u told me u wun, u will nvr do so..

bt i noe u say so bcoz u haven meet 1 nw..

perhaps u will 4get wat u hav say 2day when u meet her..

(c)

they will make us break up 1day,

tis is wat u say...

tis few day, i reli tired, sad..

2mani thg happen..

all crush 2gether..

i reli tired..

teardrops on my heart..

wat is goin on, my head is blank,

wat had teacher teach, i dun noe...

wat i noe, i m veli tired..

the words cum out from ur mouth

it make me worst..

my heart broken...

n i dun noe hw 2 repair it..

(d)

no matter hw mani gud nite u wish me,

it still does nt work..

i thought 6th form nite over, then all will over

but..

there still bbq, bio-trip

problems are endless..

he/ she/ me

hu broke it?
he? she? or myself?
cn u tell me..

wat hapen?
i dun noe..
i jus noe, my heart broken..

y it broke? hu broke it?
i dun noe..

wat had hapen..
i wish 2 noe..
i nvr been tis b4...
but y nw?
cn any1 tell me..

i wish i din love any1 b4
everythg jus bak 2 normal, i m still a cold-blooded

so bad...

ya, perhaps..
u shouldnt choi me,
i reli a bad gal..

mayb, u will b better, if i din ask 4 ur help..
i reli nt a gud frenz 2 b vf...

so, pls keep away from me...

i m sorry..
i lik d dress veli muc, reli.. if nt i wont buy it..
i din wear it.. coz tat morning, my frenz told me, there is a senior wearing it..

i does nt mean 2 hurt u..
i noe, u hurt.. u should blame on me..
i noe i m wrong, totally wrong...

i appreciate ur help,
tat day, if nt ur help, it wont b prefect...
u always b my best best frenz..
nvr nvr change..
even u dun wan me as ur frenz,
but still u r my best frenz, no matter wat happen..

i m sorry..

hapi hapi

it is 11smtg.. it almost 12am..
jus came bk from skul...
reli veli veli veli veli veli
HAPPY
(*infinity)

*i love u..

sad..

2day, i surpose goin out vf her...
but she din appear after half an hour...
i msg her, i called her..
but no reply, no ans..
wat hapen,
mayb she on d way d, traffic jam gua..
i think...

another 15 min passed,
i called her bro,
i ask him, do he saw his sis..
he say she jus infront of him...

he passed d phone 2 her...
n she say,
huh, tat day i say i nt sure d ma...
i jus cum bk from genting jek woh...

when i heard it, d 1st word i said is
huh, then nvm la, nvm la...

mayb she veli tired, i think...
after tat i msg her, is she free tmw, free 2 go out..
another no reply..
i called, another no answer..
mayb she tired till slp d.. i think
mayb she is bc-ing, i think

wat had hapen, pls..
cn any1 tell me...

is she hating me?

wondering

wondering...
wat i wondering?

alot woh..
lik..
wondering when cn i drive leh?
wondering y my result so bad leh?
wondering when cn i go kl leh?
wondering when do i free 2 go out vf rita n suki leh?
but wat make me wondering d most leh?

i wonder...
who r u?
freedom

finally settle...

exam is over...
huray!!!

2day,
during chemi paper,
nose bleeding...
reli geng ar...
nt d 1st time,
but tis time i dun have tissue,
so...
wat 2 do,run 2 d toilet loh
luckily it jus upstair...
i scare my classmate
n pn yap..
but sum oredi use 2 it

haiz...
dun reli do well tis time..
no matter is chemi or other...
my math, i jus get 64 marks...
quite sad...
haiz..

but nvm la,
it is OVER..

LAST DAY OF HOLIDAYS

unbreakable

if cn, i wish i cn 4get it,
but i cnt...

wat had happen, i cnt pretend it doesnt happen,
tis few day, i always think bout it,
d screen tat i nvr 4get,
jus lik having a slide show in my brain..
it keep on playing...
d face, d voice, d word...
all of tis, jus lik a sword
it hurts, it reli hurts...

even i tell myself nt 2 think,
n u always tell me 2 4get it...
but i reli cnt do so,
i try hard but failed,
i m sorry...

should i go tis sat? should i join them?
i reli dun noe...
everythg had changed, ntg same as the past
hw should i talk vf them, chat vf them, play vf them
4 me, it is hard 2 do so

there r a wall btw me n them
an unbreakable wall
d wall had block me 2 get close 2 them,
n blocked them from me..
hu build it?
mayb them
or
myself

pls tell me, pls teach me,
hw cn i climb over d wall 2 reach u gals...
u all r...
unreachable

new hair sytle

i jus cut my hair,
2day ago..
i say i jus wan 2 hav cut a bit,
DUN cut till 2 short..

but..

wat hav hapen,
d guy help me 2 cut till....
haiz...
u all will noe wat hapen when u c me d la...
haiz...

i jus luk lik guy, from bhind, i think....
haiz...

luckily, he lik it...
after i cut my hair, i so scare ar,
luckily he say he lik it..
he say luk lik hebe..
doingel (x100)

nvm la, as long as he lik it jiu cn liao...

ytd, went 2 kbox vf c.hui, ah hoe, n ah yun
i told him, n i noe he dun lik i go out so often...
dear, soli ar...
but when i saw him appear at jj, i reli veli veli veli hapi,
it reli a surprise..
when i phone him, he say he at parade..
but when i saw him at jj..
^.^
although it jus a few min, but i oredi veli hapi d..
dear, i reli veli hapi ytd,
thank you 4 it..


* k la, i think i better stop here, got 2 do hmk n study liao, if nt will get scold d ar, ytd went out whole day d, its time 4 my hmk..

heartbreaker

i reli lik his song alot,
he is so talented..
a korean, but his eng is prefect...

heartbreaker
a song of his new single album..
him alone,
G-DRAGON

although u may think he jus copy lady gaga..
but i still love him,
d make up same, does nt mean copy..
if so, then wat bout d smoky eye...
copy who?

it jus a
TREND

big bang G-DRAGON

haha, i finally done vf my playlist
it is full of big bang, full of G-dragon
arrr...........................

G-DRAGON
BIG BANG

i lik it alot, alot n alot...
haha,so hapi
^.^

hope u all will like it
enjoy..