wednesday

another day passed,
2day my mood was nt pretty gud..
mayb i was angry, angry of myself..
last nite, u told me u went 4 dinner
8smtg..
okie, i wait 4 u..
9pm..
okie, i still waiting..
9smtg..
i msg u, i thought u mayb fal aslp or nt free..
nup, u still having ur dinner..
10smtg..
no msg from u..

i m tired..
whole day din rest, afta skul acc peiyen till 4smtg.
bundle of hmk waiting 4 me..
afta fin my hmk, nid 2 go out 4 sum personal family stuff..
untill 10smtg..
din hav my nap, it was so tiring..
n yet, u r nt free..

wait wait wait wait wait wait slp
in d end, i fall aslp..
i tired of waiting jor

10.41pm, ur msg cum
bbq n steamboat as ur dinner..
11.04pm, another msg
gud nite..

i saw ur msg around 1am..
i din reply u..
i m angry,
y dun u let me noe earlier, so i wun wait 4 u...
tats y i din reply u at tat time..
i conti my dream..
but i cnt slp well afta tat..

until tis morning,
thgs goes worst..
my mom told me, she nid 2 use d car..
y every1 oso d same geh.. last mins
cnt she tell me earlier..
haiz.. watever la.. my mood reli gone bad tis morning..

afta reach skul, i reli nt in d mood..
2 my classmate, i m sorry,
if i put my temper on u..
n di, sorry 4 nt giving u respon tis morning,
i reli nt in d mood..

during math, i reli dun hav mood listen 2 miss ong..
i cnt solve d math Q, such a ec Q, i oso cnt solve it..
it raise my moody feel..
i use 1period 2 do tat 3 mathQ

then muet,
i jus wan 2 hav a rest,
rest my mind, n try 2 cold myself..
try 2 slp..but failed..
coz tat etron siting in front of me, talking loud..
sitution bcum worst when she standing bside me n talk 2 jac..
i still cn hear clearly bout wat she say, even i having headset, listeing song..

i move 2 ah sum place, tats beta..
slp awhle..
try nt 2 thk useless thg..
afta d nap, i feel beta..

when i beta, i start 2 flash bek,
ya, u should hav a dinner 4 so long, if u having bbq n steamboat..
i shouldnt angry..

so, i m sorry..
mayb i m angry of myself 2..

i wan 2 b normal crystal

tuesday

another day passed, 2day is beta..
at least..v hv chat awhle..
ya awhle, nt more than 5min, i thk..
another day passed..
ther are few more days 2 go..

i miss u...

2day, i saw u slp in class..

another monday

yup, another monday..
dun noe hw mani monday are left 4 me 2 prepare 4 my exam
nt muc, i noe..
but still, i m nt preparing myself at all

10th july,
hari anugerah, but oso...
REPORT CARD DAY

should i feel hapi?
u having performance on tat day
i noe u are hapi, coz tats ur dream
i feel hapi 4 u too,
but other than hapi, i feel sad too

sad of my result
my bad result..
my result drop alots, i noe
it reli drop alot alot alot alot n ALOT

hate myself 4 din hit my target..
i din set it 2 high, i jus wish i cn pass all 4sub
but in d end, i still failed..
2 pass, 2 fail..

m i nt hardworking enuf?
cn any1 tell me?
y m i getting such result even i study..

haiz..
disapointed..

HATE STUDY

as i dislik pink

try 2 hold d tear..
i wish i cn..
but i failed 2 do so

i hate tis feel
i regret on wat i hav did
sorry does nt function anymore
i m too over

i dun wan 2 lose any1 again..
i hate 2 lost any1 from my life..

try 2 hold it..
but it kip falling..

i thk u wun 4giv me..
even if u do so, i thk i cnt 4giv myself too..

1day, u wil leave me..
jus lik them..
bcoz of my fault..

wil i lost tis friendship again?

it nvr listen 2 my instrution
i wan it 2 stop, but it kip falling..

*i nvr a gud gal

silent mode

ya.. silent mode on again..
nw my condition totally diff from tis evening..
i thk suk fun will noe d diff..

tis evening, i cn talk, i cn laugh, i cn eat, i cn drink..
but nw..
i totally cnt talk, cnt laugh, cnt eat(even porridge), cnt drink( even stolen my own saliva)
damn pain..

tis is d power of medicine..
last 2 tablet.. ya, i still left 2 tablet jek..
should i take it nw?
if i take it nw, i will feel beta nw,
but when i slp, then jiu big problem..
if i take b4 i slp, i cn tahan till tmw morning
but nw veli pain..
T.T

i thk i should c doc jor..
okie, tmw afta tt go c doc

but nw..
SUFFERING

mc.d

yup.. 2day is thurs n i at mc.d nw

nt town geh mc.d, but ipohgarden geh mc.d

yeng, rite?

long way from buntong 2 here..

but its ok la, coz i lik d tis mc.d

dun ask me y,

i dun noe d reason..

^^

nw, sukfun is sitting oppo me..

v are here 2 do d inc,

but v seem lik end up vf on9..

i thk... at least i m..

=p

i thk i beta start my work, b4 get shoot..

so, tats all 4 nw..

lata if free then i post smtg else la..

tata..

sorethroat, but still cn hav mc.d meal..

sure die jor

science

ya, as a science student,
i still cn failed all my science sub..
sad, rite..

i tell myself.. too muc pressure jor..
u cnt get gud result bcoz of pressure
but, hw true is it?
m i reli giving myself too muc of pressure..
i hope i m,
but i m nt..

as a science student,
failed all science subject..

result out..

ya.. d result out dy..
all out..

again, sad, disappointed..
another 39..
dun even reach 40

is stpm 4F possible 4 me?
ya, i thk yes..
4fail..

my result dropped..
from top 10..
dropped out of tat..
for sure
100%

haiz..
dun noe wat will hapen
afta they noe i get such result..

get such result,
i still cn laugh, cn smile..
acting lik ntg
m i normal?

sad, but still cn smile..
sad, but still cn laugh..
sad, but still cn play..

i miss u

di..
10x =)

i reli nt in mood 2day..
d result reli make me disapointed..
mayb i m nt hardworking enuf
i hate myself 4 getting so bad geh result..

every1 put their hope on me
but tis kind of result..
i reli hate myself 4 doin so badly..

2day, i din eat during recess..
dun feel lik wan 2eat..
a bottle of water make me full
ya, i nid WATER..

sorry 4 making u worry 2..
i din talk, coz i reli nt in d mood..
dun feel lik having any words wan 2cum out from my mouth..
jus wan 2 kip my brain plain
plain lik a white paper

anyway, congrate..
u did well in tis exam..

ur fav colour, purple

no more sorry

no more sorry on tis topic..
close topic

i hope u und wat m i saying,
perhaps i wish u will read tis..
u seldom on9,
i noe..
so pls dun blame urself..

there is no more sorry..
tats y i dun lik sorry sorry by suju..
fan..
jus kip on sorry sorry sorry sorry..

i oredi accept ur sorry,
n i noe, u wun do tat again..
so, no more sorry..
k?

10x for make my life brighter..
mayb.. i wish..

i hope wat u say will always true..
i hope u din lie 2 me..
i wish..

i may nt 100% bliv in u nw, but
pls gv me sumtime
i will try..

sorry

no more sorry 4 u, but nt me..

i miss u

reopen

nt a gud starting..

1st day of skul..
result of 3sub out..
i failed again..
no matter hw hardworking m i
perhaps i start 2 gv up dy..
haiz..

m i reli suit 4 form6?
i thk i m nt..

but no choice, d day i step into samtet..
i force 2 it dy..

nw, there is no u-turn 4 me,
but i cnt c d road in front of me..
where should i go?


i hate form6

cn any1 tell me,
wats gone wrong..

i hate tis feel..

did i make a wrong dcision?
i hope i m nt...

u reli luk lik him..
even d feel, oso same vf him..
should i hate u?
should i kip myself away from u?
i should..
but its too late..
i cnt make it..

i nid
WATER

i dun thk u will c tis..
u seldom on9

i gt smtg 2 tell u, my heart told me..
but i dun noe wat it is..
wat it wan 2 say 2 u?
i hav no idea..

i dun lik tis feel..
my heart told me, it dun lik tis feel..
wat feel is it, i dun noe..

y will i feel so..
i dun noe

i m nt hapi..

i nid water

1st of all,
hapi father day 2 all dadies in tis world
esp my dad

act i hav ntg 2 write..
mani thg in my mind,
mani words, mani thg..
but i dun noe hw 2 write it out

m i thkin too muc?
i dun noe
jus veli fan
mayb abit emo..

i lik water
enjoy swiming
d water stop me from thkin..
blue colour, my fav colour..

totally dun noe wat m i writing.
totally dun noe wat m i thkin..
totally dun noe wat m i worry bout..

no idea at all..
isit bcoz of u?
isit bcoz of studies?
isit bcoz of family?

i wish i cn get d ans..

wan 2 write blog geh..
but enjoyin chating..
so, nxt time ya..

tata..

di, nice mou? my cake..

cheer

dun noe wat happen 2day..
d heart tell me, it is nt hapi..
dun noe y nt hapi..
emo-ing, i thk..

i m sorry..
i cnt gv u wat u wan..
i m nt tat kind of gal
mayb, u thk i m,
but sorry..
i m nt..

i may luk open,
but i do hav my limit..
pls dun challenge it..

i m sorry..
haiz.. dun noe wat 2 say ar..
fan-ing..

hope lata go out vf my didi,
it will make me beta la..

hey, cheer up..

promise

promise..

v always promise tis promise tat
but do v done wat v hav promised?
do v kip our promise?

i hate those hu promise, but break d promise..
if u cnt kip d promise, pls dun promise..
u will hurt others, u will disappointed others..

tats y, i dun promise on wat i cnt do..
but if i hav promise u smtg, n i din do it
kindly remind me, probably i 4get jor..

sorry 4 cnt rmb d promise i make
n i will do it asap..

nvr promise when u cnt do it..

i love u

i love u,
hw true is tis words..
100% /70% / 50% /20%
or its is totally nt true

hw real is tis words..
he used 2 say it too..
but v still break up in d end..
so, hw truth is tis words..
cn i reli bliv it?

i wish i cn, but i scare it hurts..

haiz.. 2day gt bit moody..
raining day
heavy rain, grey sky

but
i lik raining day..
i lik water..
dun ask me y
i jus lik it..

10x 2 my didi..
ben lai i nt in d mood..
10x 4 msg me,
i thk he dun noe i m nt in d mood..
dun feel lik wan 2 msg, so i ask him 2 chat on9..
10x..
bcoz of him, i laugh..
wat he say..
sumtimes make me beta,
atleast it let me 4get sumthg..
10x..

i still nid 2 comment bout d trip
which suggested by fun jie..
FOOD TRIP
sei la,
food trip = eat = gain weight
in d end,
food trip = FAT
hw cn she so clever..
n, y mus i b d live map? wondering..
N di, i din say i nt free..
if u all reli on then i join la..
if u all din on, then i mai off la..
so, dun say i nt free, ok..
i free 2 b ur 'live' map..
sad.. ask me out jus bcoz i m d live map, sad...
(haha, jus joke)
k la, tats all..

*10x, di..

fulled

sorry, last nite raining + tunder,
so i din on9..

seem lik my hp reli sot sot d liao..
always auto switch off..
should i say it is 2 sensitive jor?
haiz, watever la...

haha, my blog geh frenz list finally complete la..
filled vf rita, peiyen, my didi, n nic..
tis 4persons change mylife alot.. mayb
:p

rita
without her, i wun b me as hu m i nw..
bcoz of her, i learn alot alot alot of thg..
10x..

peiyen
bff, even though nw she dun nid me jor..
since she gt her boy boy d..
but still she stil my bff

my didi..
luckily gt him, if nt my f6 life wun b fun..
esp upper6..
di, i love u..
wakaka... dun worry..
tis is a love 4 family member
dun luan luan thk..

nic..
no comment yet..
mayb lata la, i will hav comment geh..
hehe..

wish all of them hapi hapi 4ever.. ^^

raining

raining nw..
lik d weather, cold cold d..
veli nice..

but still i hope it will stop at6pm,
i nid 2 go swiming :)
n get sum weight loss..

sei mou, i din go 2 gym 4 few weeks d,
n tis help me 2 gain weight..
even my senior oso say i fat jor
sad..

k la, act i ntg 2 write, jus feel lik wan2 blog jek..
hehe.. :p
mayb 2nite la, goin 2 write sumthg more meaningful geh...

private

finally i set it as private..
nw i cn write watever i wan..
n those innoy1 wil nt c it..
hapi hapi... ^^

di, u should hapi, coz u r d 1st person i invite.. :p

recently wat i hav post, if it make u upset..
or wat i hav post make u upset..
soli 4 it..

but tis is my blog..
wat i write is jus my feeling..
u may ignore it..
if u dun lik it..

i thk i should set it as private blog, so tat u wun b read it anymore..
do u noe, i reli angry when i heard tat u dun lik wat i write in blog,
i hope u will noe hu u r la..
wat i write is not ur business, hu u r 2 care bout it..
u jus nobody.. u reli make me angry..

*i thk i will set my blog as private blog soon, so tat those hu nt welcome will nt be able 2 read it anymore
of coz, if u wan 2 read it, u may let me noe n i will invite u..
Thanks, n soli 4 any inconvenience

oredi get d ans..
i m nt d oli 1.. nt even d 1..
again, nid 2 4get it
i thk i cn do it
atleast i haven fall 2 d endless

i cnt be urs,
tis secret i will kip it 4ever..
u wil nvr noe
v still frenz..

i wil help u 2 get her..
try my best..
altought its hurt..
but i will help u..
i dunwan u to sad, moody..
i wan 2 c ur smile, although its nt 4 me..
but i wish 2 c ur smile..

another hole appear..
try 2 fill it bk..

*di, i m nt talking bout u, dun worry, u always my didi ONLY..

雙魚座
處處留情的雙魚座戀喜歡將自己當成小說中的主角，
將一切過於美化甚至是神化
以致總因為些不設實際的幻想而破壞了和情人間的誓盟。
此外，由於雙魚座的朋友多數給人友善而可愛的感覺，待人熱情，
以致常使人誤會，造成很多感情的瓜葛，
戀愛持久力可說是並不強勁。

how truth is it..

pls.. i nid 2 slp..
i reli tired dy..
cn u get off of my mind..

tis few day, i din slp..
dun noe wat hapen..
my mind is nt under control..
wat hav u done 2 it..

try 2 do mani thg,
so i wun thk of sumthg i shouldnt thk

i m tired..
sum1 pls rescue me...

U n him

U n him, both of u gt sum similarity..
ya, u get my attention..
but i scare...

u reli luk lik him, in sum way..
but u r still urself, he is still himself,
i noe u 2 is different..
u seem 2 b beta..
but i dare nt 2 take d risk..

tis month is a test.. a test 4 u n me..

i noe i m nt ur oli 1,
u seem 2 be as friendly to every1,
i m nt d oli1..
i thk i mis und sumthg, trying 2 stop thkin..
trying 2 thkin negatively, so tat i will del u in my mind
i nid 2 concentrate in study.. U 2

do u noe, sumtime u make me confuse
d words u use, say, type..
it reli confuse me..
try 2 ignore it, telling myself..
it jus a joke
i noe i m nt d oli 1
v jus frenz.. at least nw v r

i dun wan 2 have any hope..

NO HOPE = No SAD + No DISAPPOINT + NO HURT

time to say goodbye

tell me goodbye by big bang..
nice, thumb up..
love big bang always

holidays begin..
say goodbye 2 exam, buks,
n U..

flashback getting less n less than ever
it will jus a memory 4ever
store it recycle bin

i will 4get u
Congrate, crystal..

holidays begin...
say welcome to my brand new life..

WELCOME ^^v

feel free to find me out during tis holidays
time 2 relax