Wednesday, December 2, 2009

to those anonymous,

i thk i noe hu u all r,
u dun wan tell hu u r,
tats ok..
i dun wan 2 bother anymore d..
i m tired of all tis stuff d..

ya, i m keeping a distance vf u all..
i noe it.. do i wish to do so?
i thk i m nt, but i dunnoe y..
i jus cnt break through d wall..

wat had hapen is d past, past tense..
i try 2 4get it..
if cn, i wish 2 vanish tat part of memories..

i will try, i m trying..
mayb u all din feel it..
its ok...

rita, she is my frenz too..
she noe wat hapen btw me n tat gal..
mayb u all dun noe wat hapen.. or
mayb u all agree vf tat gal..
i dun noe..
wat i noe is, rita is my frenz..
u all may thk she try 2 spoilt our friendship..
but i cn wan 2 let u noe, she din't..
so, pls stop it..

jus lik wat i write in my previous post..
i shouldnt post it out..
if i dint, there will nt b so muc problems..

v still frenz, i noe..
u all jus try 2 help me, i noe it..
tis is nt ur problem, nt rita's problem
but me..

time will help me, i wish..





8 comments:

Anonymous said...

seriously i tell u,i faced lots and lots problem b4.whether is btwn frens,seniors or teachers.i still manage to overcome it.y is dis so?myb da period u might feel frustrated,but dis feeling will be disappearing fast if u manage to get along wif one another.u din even let whole bunch of seniors scold b4..u noe,tat kind of feeling,i feel like knocking my head to da wall.it was soooo hurtful u noe..i really had a hard time.i bet i can do it,u sure can do it.although i noe they dislike me for my attitude,but i did changed!from someone mouth saying tat.i hate her soooo much.but now i no longer hearing all of them said tat.but i juz hear tat say tat,i love u so much..see..u can chg da fact.juz depend how is it only.myb wen da time suit,we will talk to u

Anonymous said...

wel...i am v dissapointed to hear that we juz give u tears and sadness...and not happiness and laughter....to be true...i am vvv sad and dissapointed that u wanna make the memories vanish from ur life....do the memories mean ntg to u?did the memories juz give u heartbreak and not a smile when u think about them?u r willing to let the friendship which has been part of ur life for years go?walls do not exist..ur mind created it..if u mind says that there r walls...the walls can be strong and tall like the great wall of china...but once ur mind says that there is no walls anymore...the walls will juz tear down in front of u immediately...so in conclusion it juz how the way u think...ur mind influences all ur actions..and ur way of thinking affects the way ur ming works....so for now...try to let urself a rest...dont think too much about it...take some time....and u might be able to think out of the box....but time is not an excuse for u to escape from this probs and issues...once u dont settle them down...they will haunt u...which u r experiencing now...yes undeniable time is the cure of everything...but it doesnt work if dont put any effort in sorting things out...
i juz want to tell some buddies here...including pui yun....i am glad to have to as my friends for years...u all have been surrounding me for almost a century....and i appreciated that...i really miss these days we had laughter,joy,sadness and tears together...u all coloured my life like the rainbow...and make my life like no others....and these memories shall follow me...i shall bring them to my grave....and even next time..if i can...haha...well pui yun i really hope that u can have thoughts which r alike mine...but if u wish to forget everything....juz go on...we wont stop u and blame u...we will juz blame ourselves for not doing our part as friends.....juz that it will hurtful for us i believe...and it will be like a nail in our heart....feeling our hearts are pain whenever we think about it....

Anonymous said...

ya.seriously.nothing is special enough for u to remember as part of ur memories?nothing else?really all oso sadness?see.people can think positively but you cnt.just a very little gap waiting for u to fulfill only.even teacher betrayed me,caused so many pl hate me,but i still managed to overcome it.time is for u to heal from sadness but not for u to think to varnish everything or to hate more.no point.will it be happy if u continue hate FAKER?i believe that sooner or later everything will back to normal.now the problem is you are hiding behind.no one is avoiding u,but u just keep thinking and thinking.it's too over!u think too much.sometime pl din even think of doing that to you.maybe tat will cause u to be sad.sometime your feelings are not real.you have to differenciate well.sometime u cnt think too much wan.

Unknown said...

d part of memories i mean to b d part of sadness..

since it cause so muc of trouble, y shouldnt b vanish..

i noe, there r hapiness n joy btw us..
n i noe, i m avoiding myself..
dun noe y..

i built it on my own, n i should break it on my own...

Anonymous said...

since u said so,seems that it's hard to change your mind.i have no words

Unknown said...

i will try..
sorry 4 making u fel disappointed

Anonymous said...

memories come with joy and sadness...if u wish to make the sad part to be vanished..the happy part is being erased from ur mind as well...cause i believe all these years...all we had been through...it was not juz pertaining happiness,joy and laughter that we had...it included the frustration...dissapointment and tears that we had during all these whiles...this is wat brought us closer...knew each other better...memories consist these 2 parts...if u erase one part of it....the remains hav no meanings at all...that's wat i can say about.....
well i think that the reasons u r avoiding us...because u dont have trust in us rite??i believe that that's the reason u r keeping a distance between us and urself....if u wanna break the wal....try to have trust in us...and ope urself up to us....we would be glad to lend u helping hands...

Unknown said...

tis cuming tues, i try

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