家

有时候，突然跑出去，
就为了买一些甜品回来给父母吃，
看着甜品被吃光，
就已经很幸福了

今天，圣诞节，
理应很开心的，
可我的心情却像今天的天气，
只是阴天，并没有雨

今天，圣诞节，
一点进度都没有，
一整天都在发白日梦，
可它到底在想什么，
连我这主人都不晓得，
脑子就一直转，
一直转，一直转...

今天，圣诞节，
可心情却没有应该的开心

挂在天上亮亮的星星，
迎面吹来凉凉的阵风，
被温暖的气息包镶着
这就是幸福，满足了

大家圣诞节快乐 ^^

如果

如果当初我勇敢，结局是不是不一样。 
如果当时你坚持，回忆会不会不这样。

happy birthday

this year birthday, wasn't a special one, 
but a simple one, and i jus like the simple of it.
sometimes receiving warm birthday wishes from true friends is more than enough

once again, thanks whoever wish me happy birthday.
i appreciate it n ll keep it in heart.

there r few ppl that i really wan to thanks soooo much
-my SOM frenz, thanks for the surprise.. i reli din expect it, thanks for it ^^
-my gang, thanks for the coke light n redbull, i love the coke so much, 
although i duno hu tell u gals tat i love redbull, wic i dun even noe myself love redbull, 
bt i still appreciate it so much.. thank you so much
-my @ frenz, thanks for the song, n thanks for no helicopter, reli glad tat it doesnot happen tis year, hopefully the cuming year oso wil nt hav it.. ^^ keke 
-peisan, thanks for the "soil", i thk i wont plant it la, i scare i waste it, i rather kip it as memory.. thanks for it
-jinliang, thanks for sending the 1st message ^^ 
-my family, tis is the 1st time, i arent at home for my birthday, even my family doesnot hav d birthday celebration culture, but i jus wish to stay hum when my birthday.. this year is my 1st year, nt being home

a special thanks to hohee, 
who let me slp at his place, n fetch me all over kl during the last weekend even tats d only time he can rest.
i'm sooo sorry for causing disturbance for u
hopefully, i did help u to distress abit in tat 2 days, coz u reli luk stress compare to the past, 
dun stress out, will get old fast ^^ 

thanks for adding memories in my life

happy birthday to you 

翅膀

有些人不必等待

你心裡其實清楚得很

這個人不必再等了

只是你放不下

winter.snowflake

it had been sometime, since my last post

just a little crap for today

its November, last day of november

season of winter, 

other than christmas, 

i think of snow flake

the beautiful snow flake

although i have not see it, touch it before

but i felt it

it just like the rain, 

i like the rain as well as the snow

it fall bit by bit, bring message then you couldn't read

just a random one

this is just a random post, 

just because I don't feel sleepy, don't feel like want to sleep yet, 

start to be weird, when there is time for me to sleep, I'm not sleep, 

but crapping here.

2 posts in a day, what a special day

I have not blog for such a long time, 

currently is busying with many things, 

clubs, organization, sport, academic, health..

still finding the balance point, 

feeling myself have over the limit.

kindle lost in the middle, once again

lost in the middle,

where should I go, what should I do, is this what I really want

is this consider emo? 

who knows..

In the end

放棄便算好麼　我可以一個
過去連隨在這剎那掠過
叫我再次渴切觸摸
開口的總不應該是我
即使都心知再不可
但是你一天不告別
我一天也願　​​​​會結更美的果

這晚你決定了麼　
原來是說出是你我也做錯
對你對我也似個　枷鎖
只好親手將鎖弄破
方可把彼此看清楚
但是你這一些領悟
也只可以令你好過

我沒能力再問為何
你放棄我有何不可
曾被愛火　激烈燒過
如何能回頭再找真我
明日你有氣力愛過
我會有什麼

不敢想得太多
誰能料這是結果
回首你舊時是愛過我
沒愛過　也沒法弄清楚


不管傾出幾多
仍然是　這樣結果
何必編織那一起的夢
雙手給我　悔不當初
簡簡單單一個

那怕是真的有些領悟
都不會再令我好過

definition of happiness

How would you define happiness?

Today,I had a great day 
early in the morning, went out with ken
watched Looper at Gurney, 
it is a nice movie, you will not waste your 11bucks, 

trust me, it is a MUST watch movie

before the movie, we have lunch at Kim Gary, 
don't really have appetite
din't eat much, can't even finish my meal.
seems like my gastric friend will visit me soon.

after the movie, it is still early, 
went to hard rock hotel, have a walk at the beach, 
the sun, the blue sky, the wind, the beach, the sea
every thing have a good matching.

welcome back my friends,
the show that never ends... - ELP

after the beach, went to straits quay, 
my ever first time to be there, 
much more nicer than my expectation, 
i heard quite a number of bad feedback from friends, 
but it was not as bad as I thought =)

ken said i'm weird,
y I dun take photo with the wall graphic,
=)  

at night, went to khun thai for dinner 
with christine, joee, ashley, peklin, peisan, n engsing
this is my 3rd times visit khun thai, 
every semester once, 
main point: I don't really like spicy food =p
but tonight was my funniest dinner i have, 
with some frog pop out half way, 
the glass "explode" suddenly, 
and all of us like O.O (include everyone there, i think)

at last, thanks to Ken who bring me out today, 
i have enjoyed the day, i hope you enjoyed too ^^
thanks to christine, joee, ashley, peklin, peisan, eng sing, 
we have a fun dinner tonight, with many unexpected pop up.. 
thank you so much, and happy mid-autumn festival to everyone ^^ 


this is what I called happiness =D

full house

享受单身生活，
心里满了，累了
暂时不想受伤了。 

对的人，是还未出现，还是错过了。

crapping here and there

feel like posting tonight, but i have no idea what should i write about, 
lets recall what i have done today.

kay, I went QB this morning with money and carmen, 
watched resident evil, not really a good idea, 
cause it is a horror movie, although money say it is a horror action movie, 
I admit, I 'm scare of it, hopefully tonight I will not have nightmare
after the movie, went for lunch, and bought some stuff.
sometime, make your schedule full, 
so that you will not have the time to think of anything.

by the time I back to hostel from QB, its already 5pm, 
have a quick bath, prepare to go night market with jacqueline, and her course mates 
my first time been to jelutong night market, have a fun time with them 
I told jac about what I worry about, how much I wish I'm just too sensitive.
but reality will not always be just like what you wish. 

feel like crapping in this post, 
Haiz.. seriously don't what should I say, 
the brain is over load.. think too much
is there any way to stop?

addition:
someone say I'm too mature, am I? 
perhaps, mayb..
what do you think?

sleep soundly ~ sea dragon

一個人．旅行

我想去巴黎、倫敦、俄羅斯、哥本哈根......
我想嘗試一個人旅行，證明自己可以獨立；我也想和你一起，並肩漫步某國小鎮

我希望，有一天，這些都能實現。

——你我他

someday

After everything stopped, the time is silently ticking again

My sunken heart is once again suffocating as I am left alone

I get crazily sad even over the disappearing pain

Someday, having to endure this time without you will end as well

Someday, this love will be forgotten, my love that I long for 

You who always made it so hard for me

Someday, my sad love, my love that I long for 

You always need to be happy after leaving me

These stairs of love always made me nervous

Continuous times of sadness and hardships, burning hearts

Nervous hands, the restraint of a cruel separation

It hurts then heals then hurts again

This repetition of pain is so hard, driving me crazy

I get crazily sad even over the disappearing pain

After leaving me

The only things I can do right now is hoping for your happiness

And letting time pass like this for the scars to heal

And though I want to call you, shutting my mouth

And continuously fighting against the endless regrets

I force myself to write the words of separation

I erase my past days one by one

Day by day, I blankly try to overcome these things

My everything, my hope, my love, 

you after leaving me

true/false

how true is it?

A city without you

city without you, it's crying,
but i still loving it

there are ours memory,
although you have forget it

Once broken, Never fixed

I trusted you with my heart,
I handed it over and said,
be careful,don't break it
and you said you wouldn't,
right after that you shattered it.

It is not the broken heart that kills,
but the broken pride

choice/chance?

That's the only choice you give to me. 

please

If you love me, let me know. If not, please let me go.

my choice

Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought, 

useless and disappointing.

i have a HAPPY day

it should be a happy day, 
i should..

went to sing k with jin liang, n jac 
she is the little princess who trying to eat the mike, 
my little princess =D 

after sing k, went for dinner in town, 
thanks for the boss(jin liang) who drove us there, n drove us home

have a try on how to make "cup cake", teach by my aunty, 
"cup cake", so called 鸡蛋糕, seem like saying a bad word..
lovely "cup cake" n it taste great =P

so i called it a day, 

it should be a HAPPY day

it should..

隐藏的那个

那个地方，回忆，

有你和我，我和他，他和她

我们和你们，你们和他们，他们和我们的

盛夏的季节，背后的事实，

有谁清楚，除了自己... 

也会有连自己也不清楚的时候

the road not taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim

Because it was grassy and wanted wear,

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I marked the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference. 

by Robert Frost

recently, this poem always come to my mind, 

i was thinking am i on the right track?

is this what i really want?

is this what i really wish?

no matter is this the right or wrong decision i made, 

i still need to continue with it

there is no turning back..

what i can do is keep walking, keep on going

ps: pui yun, no matter is this what you want, what you wish, keep going.. fighting^^

如果

‎1 如果你心裡有別人了 講清楚、我退出

2 如果你對別人有感覺 講清楚、我退出

3 如果你不想愛了 我放棄

4 如果你心裡還有我 請忘了別人、對我好一點

5 如果你覺得對不起我 而放棄愛別人、這樣的同情我不要

6 如果你從來就沒愛過我 要嘛你滾、要嘛我滾

突然在面子书看到这，我想让你知道这

这城市

这里的天气，比槟城要凉快..
我想我还是喜欢这个爱哭的城市.

这个城市在改变，它在一步一步地前进..
逐渐进步, 可笑的是,我竟然不想它改变
这个陪着我长大的城市

以前，睡觉都不盖被，
现在，竟然却盖被了..
大概是因为槟城的天气比较热,
回到这，有点不习惯它的冷
可是，我依然很喜欢它
这个充满回忆的城市

这个城市，没有你那里的四季,
你可否还记得这个城市的美?

你那里应该是春天了吧，
这里依然是个多雨的城市..

等待，总是漫长的

the gift

I’ve been a walking heartache

I’ve made a mess of me

The person that I’ve been lately

Ain’t who I wanna be

But you stay here right beside me

And watch as the storm blows through

And I need you

Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs

God gave me you for the days of doubt

And for when I think I lost my way

There are no words here left to say, it’s true

God gave me you

Gave me you

There’s more here than what we’re seeing

A divine conspiracy

That you, an angel lovely

Could somehow fall for me

You’ll always be love’s great martyr

And I’ll be the flattered fool

And I need you

God gave me you for the ups and downs

God gave me you for the days of doubt

And for when I think I lost my way

There are no words here left to say, it’s true

God gave me you

On my own I’m only

Half of what I could be

I can’t do without you

We are stitched together

And what love has tethered

I pray we never undo

Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs

God gave me you for the days of doubt

God gave me you for the ups and downs

God gave me you for the days of doubt

And for when I think I lost my way

There are no words here left to say, it’s true

God gave me you, gave me you.

He gave me you.

lies

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we've had been through 
Even though we're far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete
But now I'm left alone

We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you

Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'd love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you

I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories

I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies.

puzzle

突然觉得，

人， 是脆弱的个体..

每个人，在他人生中，

手上都拿着一片一片的拼图，

有名为亲情的，有名为友情的，也有名为爱情的拼图

在我们的人生中， 

我们不断在寻找，凑齐我们手上的拼图

其中，最容易找到， 凑齐并扩展的，

应该是亲情的这一张拼图

无论什么时刻， 第一时间站出来，协助你的， 安慰你的，

永远是家人

也是名为亲情的这张拼图

再来，就是友情的拼图

这是一张可以很大，也可以很小的拼图

由你自己来决定

有的人，他们的拼图很小，可能就像我们小时候玩的拼图那样，

只有那么的两三张

有的人， 他们的拼图很大，很复杂，就像那一万张的拼图一样，

需要很长的时间，可能还需要某些特别的能力，才能够拼成

最后，是一张，

最寻找的拼图， 

这是一张只有两张的拼图，

无论多一张，或少一张都不能

很多人，也因为这一张拼图而受伤，

可是，也有很多人因为它而感到幸福

这张的拼图，一旦合成，就会和亲情的拼图二合为一

其实，凑齐这些拼图不难，

难的是要如何维持，不让它散落...

我的拼图，

我依然还在寻找着...

你的拼图，

完成了吗？