truth

wat is d truth?
i dun noe..
any1 noe d reason,
oli he noe d reason.. ( i thk)

nid 2 concentrate on study..
is it d truth?
i hope it is..

but i thk there other reasons..

Anonymous n freedom

i noe u all r them..
i dun noe hu u r,
but i noe u r 1 of them..

jus lik wat u all say,
mayb tis is my pro..

but 4 me, it is hard 2 do it..
it is nt as easy as wat v say..

i try, but i failed..
mayb u all thk i din try b4,
but u jus dun noe it..

i had changed, i noe..
i m no longer d puiyun in d pass..

i dun even rmb hw is d gal name puiyun being..
since tat day, i choose 2 4get tis gal..
tis make me feel safe...
at least, i cn get some hapiness..

Rita, she is my frenz too,
i noe u all may nt lik her,
coz u thk she distroying our friendship..
but act she dint,
d pro is nt vf her neither u all..

but myself

time 2 4get...

i cut my hair d..
veli short
but still acceptable,
i thk..

i thk alot in tis few day..
nw is d time 2 4get
4get those thg tat make me unhapi..
other than 4get,
i cnt thk a beta way 2 make us fel beta,
but is it so easy 2 4get?
i dun thk so, i tried b4..
but i failed..

nw,
i gv me n u a 2nd chance
d memories btw us, will lik d hair i cut
get away from me..

九年， 从小学进入这个球队到现在已经有九年了。 这九年，对我来说并不长， 可是也不短。 九年的时光对某些人来说， 或许是很长... 但对我来说， 一点也不长， 甚至觉得不够长，不够多。 这九年的时间， 让我得到了与她们的友情。

让我舍不得放弃，离开球队的也是这份友情。 曾经， 我觉得很累， 身心都很累。每天睡醒时，都发现眼角边的泪痕， 到底是梦里哭， 还是睡前哭的？谁晓得...

曾经时间， 每个training我都迟到， 对这个球队已经感到厌倦了。 努力了这么多年，什么也没有，剩下的就只有这份友情。

但， 现在的我开始怀疑这份友谊的真实性有多少？100%？ 50%？ 又或许更少...
她们真的是好朋友？一次又一次的相信... 一次又一次的背叛... 一次又一次的欺骗...

我应该相信她们吗？还是让现在的这样成为我们的终点？

10x

10x alot, guys n gals..
i ntg,
dun worry..

10x 4 caring,
i better d..
he is nt my everythg,
bside him,
i still having mani thg...

i din blame him or hate him..
i noe tis is d rules of d game..
i lose but i dun lost anythg..
i stil d same.. nt muc diff
mayb d diff is jus d status..
in a relationship >> single

i lose 2 him..
tis is a game..

in a game,
there always a winner n a loser..

survivor..

1day passed, n i still survive..
should i hapi?
but still i cnt smile..
i thought i will b ntg..
it nvr a big deal 4 me..
but it seems lik lost of control tis time..

sit bside him..
dun noe hw 2 express.. everythg is different..
is my problem or his? i dun noe..
wat should i do?

isit impossible 4 a couple 2 b frenz after they break up?

lies

u lies..
untrustable..

wat u say, u failed 2 do it..
u lies..

draft

*another 2 draft in my phone..

8.11.09
sat nite..
he changed..
i reliased it long ago, but i jus ingore it..
i tel myself..
u jus tired, u wan 2 play game..
u lik 2 play game..
i try 2 ingore it..

v use 2 chat whole nite..
bt 4 d past few weeks, v seldom call..
veli tired.. d reason..
even msg oso getting less n less..

u bcing vf ur class..
bio trip, dance, bbq..
i kep telling myself, u r bcing jek..
everythg will bk 2 normal soon..
untill sum1 told me,
there is a gal lik u, n veli close vf u..
i told u,
but u say it is impossible..

but tis is wat happened...
u say u lik her b4.. but nw ntg..
at 1st u din tell hu is her, but i guess is her...
i asked mani times, u finally said..
from tat moment, my heartbroken..
i cry silently..i was at restoran tat time..
luckily i make up..
it help me 2 cover my tear, i tried 2 hold it..
but i failed..

9.11.2009
i think whole nite, i din slp...
i will kept my promise, but gv me sum time..
i m nt angry or wat..
but pain n scare..
u say u ntg..u say u stil luv me..
but wat i feel is diff..
u r nt d dear i noe..my dear wun b lik tat..
do u noe u changed..

我不配

这街上太拥挤

太多人有秘密

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪

在还原那场雨

这巷弄太过弯曲 走不回故事里

这日子不再绿

又斑驳了几句

剩下搬空回忆的我 在大房子里

电影院的座椅

隔遥远的距离

感情没有对手戏 你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于

描述我如何爱你

你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉 已经不对

我努力在挽回

一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给

你嘟嘴 许的愿望 很卑微 在妥协

是我忽略 你不过要人陪

这感觉 已经不对

我最后才了解

一页页 不忍翻阅的情节
你好累 你默背
为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴

而我心碎 你受罪
你的美 我不配

这街上太拥挤

太多人有秘密

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪

在还原那场雨

这巷弄太过弯曲 走不回故事里

这日子不再绿

又斑驳了几句

剩下搬空回忆的我 在大房子里

电影院的座椅

隔遥远的距离

感情没有对手戏 你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于

描述我如何爱你

你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉 已经不对

我努力在挽回

一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给

你嘟嘴 许的愿望 很卑微 在妥协

是我忽略　你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对

我最后才了解

一页页 不忍翻阅的情节
你好累 你默背
为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴

而我心碎 你受罪
你的美 我不配

这感觉 已经不对

我努力在挽回

一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给

你嘟嘴 许的愿望 很卑微 在妥协

是我忽略 你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对

我最后才了解

一页页 不忍翻阅的情节
你好累 你默背
为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴

而我心碎 你受罪
你的美 我不配

退后

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后 并没有 更自由
酸酸的空气 嗅出我们的距离
一幕最新的结局 像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记 榨干了回忆
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去 被算是真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情 粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后 并没有 更自由
酸酸的空气 嗅出我们的距离
一幕最新的结局 像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记 榨干了回忆
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去 被算是真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情 粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

想太多

你笑着说
她是朋友

但你眼中太温柔

我的不安
那么沉重

只有你不懂

她霸占了你的心中

属于我的角落

所以你说 我们
不是你和我

是我想太多
你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多
我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

她霸占了 你的心中

属于我的角落

所以你说 我们
不是你和我

是我想太多
你总这样说

但你却没有 真的心疼我

是我想太多
我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么

虽然你不说
都是错在我

太晚我才懂
爱了你太多

是我想太多
你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多
我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

wat u say.. jus a lie..
wat u promise.. jus empty promise..

1 week for both of us...
act wats d 1 week for?
i dun noe..
i oredi noe d ans..
so wat is d 1 weeks for?

back

my com finally bak..
virus.. it takes my 40 bucks..
omg.. hav 2 on diet 4 1 week, i thk..

my heart broken...
totally broken..

nw i wish 2 use %#^&&*
i m sorry.. i noe it is rude, but..
i hav plenty thg 2 say...
but my com haven bk yet, cc even slower than turtle..
dun noe wat cacat cc isit...

my heart reli pain..
betray..
isit consider as betray? i dun noe..
plenty thg 2 say.. mani thg hapen..
n worst, i dun noe wat 2 do..

perhaps i will blog it when my com return..
it is 2 slow at cc.. beh tahan..

*wat should i do 2 save both of us, my heart broken..

*i wrote tis few day ago.. com is repairing, so i draft it in my hp

(a)

i hurt mine n his...

it is broken nw..

it is reli pain..

do he noe it..

he is d 1st guy make me feel so..

(b)

hw deep i love u?

i wish i din love u b4..

at least i wun b suffering

u r a gud guy,

perhaps u r excellent

i fel lik i m nt deserve 2 get u, luv u...

i scare 1day u will found a better gal

n drop me..

u told me u wun, u will nvr do so..

bt i noe u say so bcoz u haven meet 1 nw..

perhaps u will 4get wat u hav say 2day when u meet her..

(c)

they will make us break up 1day,

tis is wat u say...

tis few day, i reli tired, sad..

2mani thg happen..

all crush 2gether..

i reli tired..

teardrops on my heart..

wat is goin on, my head is blank,

wat had teacher teach, i dun noe...

wat i noe, i m veli tired..

the words cum out from ur mouth

it make me worst..

my heart broken...

n i dun noe hw 2 repair it..

(d)

no matter hw mani gud nite u wish me,

it still does nt work..

i thought 6th form nite over, then all will over

but..

there still bbq, bio-trip

problems are endless..