stupid chemi,
d more i memorise,
d least i rmb..
wat a brain i hav..
arrrrrrrrrr...

alkane:
free radical substitution

alkene:
electrophilic addition

haloalkane:
nucleophilic substitution

benzene:
electophilic substitution

alcohol:
reaction of breaking OH bond
reaction vf HX
dehydration
n etc..

those stupid reaction stil cn separate into mani type..
n nw, i mixed up all d..
esp nucleophilic substitution, electrophilic substitution, electrophilic addition..
ya, there are diff..
n muc muc diff
reactant diff,
catalyst diff,
condition diff,
product diff..

i wan 2 faint dy...

原以为，
一切都恢复正常..
至少我和你不会有任何改变
我以为..

原来，
这一切只不过是假象

是你的演技太好，
还是，
我选择忽视了这一切

也许，
是我太坏了，
为了保护自己，
我竟然伤害了你..

我一直都不是好人..

你的玩笑，
是真是假，
我分不出，
或许我根本不想要知道，
不想得到一个不想要得到的答案..

逃避，
除了逃避，
不晓得还会做什么，
还可以做什么..

我不是好人，
除了伤害，
我不晓得我可以为你带来什么..

因为我不会是好人

coward

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节

灰色的天空
就像我的心情一样
灰灰的
伤感的

雨过天晴
哭过了
就重拾微笑
没有狂风暴雨
就不会有美丽的彩虹了
不是吗？

笑容，真的有那么容易重拾？

again and again

c, again..
i m wrong again
wats d matter,
i jus dun lik 2 stay at hum

y mus i stay at hum?
stay at hum 2 let u all scold,
let u all put ur temper on me?

enuf dy,
i cnt stand it anymore,
do u all reli care bout me?
do u all noe i m nt hapi?
do u all noe i m tired of all d stuff?

i dun noe y m i studying..
i dun even noe wat m i doin..
m i doin wat i wan 2 do?

i noe u all will b hapi,
coz he is cumin bek tmw..
do u all noe,
sumtime, i hate him
i m beta than him..
but yet, u all love him more,
coz he is d oli son..
(wat if i m nt a gal, but a guy)

last time, u all used 2 say i useless,
but afta i score in my pmr n spm,
afta i score beta than him,
i m still useless..
wats theory is it,
i wish 2 noe..

do u all noe y m i tired of study..
i dun noe y m i studyin,
m i study 4 my own,
i dun noe,
wat i noe, i m nt studyin wat i wan..

no matter wat i do,
no matter hw gud m i,
he is still beta 4 u all,

tired,

but,
slpless nite

jus get 2 noe trial had move 2 16th of august..
should i b hapi?
coz it shorten d time 4 suffering..
but i 100% nt prepared

purpose 2 hav 2months,
but nw left vf 3weeks..

2 to 3,
increase..
2months to 3weeks,
decrease..

surpose 2 study nw,
surpose 2 fin all d hmk,
surpose 2 holding my p.a note,
or watever notes..
but i m still here..

jus nw,
went 4 mv vf my di,
inception,
a gud mv..
u should watch it b4 u missed it

stil left vf 3weeks,
n i stil go for mv
brilliant..

最近
变得爱哭了
讨厌这样的自己

懦弱

笑容
是用于掩饰伤心的面具

真的只是有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。
真的只是有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心 里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一口。
真的只是有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的 人，突然觉得说不出话。
真的只是有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东 西一夜间面目全非。
真的只是有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自 己简单的行李去流浪。
真的只是有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。
真的只是有时候，夜深人静的时候，突然觉得寂寞深入骨髓。
真的只是有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表 达。
真的只是有时候，觉得自己其实一无所有，仿佛被世界抛弃。
真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。
真的只是有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己彻彻底底醉一次 。
真的只是有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累 很累。

真的只是有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。
真的只是有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全 感。
真的只是有时候，渴望别人的关怀，渴望一份简单的快乐。

copy from my di blog..
but it said out part of my feeling

isit a blue monday?

not a blue monday..
but a worry monday

gonna hav a eye check up lata
omg, i dunwan 2 wear spec..
T.T

i dun wan 2 join d spec world
dunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwan
dunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwan
dunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwan
dunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwan
DUNWAN

last day

i thk 2day will b d last day..
in future, i dun thk i stil gt d chance
everythg will come 2 an ending..

last day,
n i should stop my hope..
i wish i m satisfy..
i will...

dun worry bout wat i post in my blog,
n dun feel sorry 4 wat i post..

afta i wrote it out, i choose 2 del it from my mind..
so, u no nt nid 2 worry

pls dun feel sorry,
coz u r nt wrong..

v mature enuf, 2 understand n leave it...
wat i nid is time,
i bliv time will help me
i will recover afta sumtime..

although i thk i might nid sum time,
but dun worry..

v r frenz..
no more futher than tis

time 2 face d true..
=]

18th of july

1 more month 2 go..
but i still sitting here,
blogging..

i skip my tt again,
i hope mr. ng wun mind..
=p

but i mind..

lost motivation 2 study dy..
where cn i find my motivation bek?
if u noe d secret, kindly let me noe..
i nid help..

wish all my frenz all d best...

u6f2 fighting^^

esp 2 my di,
gambateh...

have i done wat i surpose 2 do?

no hope no sad

i shouldnt put any hope on u,
hopeless...

u make me feel i m jus a stupid

they told me,
nt worth 2 do so,
but still i m doin it,
hw stupid m i..

sorry, peiyen
i should listen 2 u,
b4 everythg gone wrong,
u told me,
it wun b a gud ending,
n i noe it..

dun noe y,
i m still doing it..
in d end,
get myself in 2 trouble..

tired 2 hav any hope on u

reply

wat u hav promise, u din make it..
tats y, i dun lik promise
unleast, i make sure i cn kip d promise..

nw,
u say u wun hurt me,
but in d end,
u did..

at 1st,
it reli hurt..
but nw,
everythg might bek 2 normal,
seem lik immune 2 it dy..
since u r nt d 1st hu hurt me
used 2 it dy..

=)

crystal is trying her best...

有点累了，
可惜找不到可以休息的地方

脑子乱了，
可惜找不到解决的方法

心痛了，
可惜找不到医治的方法

一只没有脚的小鸟,

永远都不能停下来,
只到它能面对死亡,
它才被允许休息...

a sad day 4 me..

isit?
i dun noe, i wish wasn't

act wat hapen?
i nt sure bout it..

wat i noe,
i m nt hapi 2day..

no1 say bout my result,
mr. tan say ok,
my dad din say anythg,
but yet
i cried..

no1 blame me on my result,
mayb they noe tis is d lvl,
high standard of sam tet

i blame on myself,
i noe i shouldnt get such result,
it reli make me disappointed..

my bro told me last time,
it is normal, if u failed in stpm,
n i noe it is normal..

but still...
i cnt 4giv myself 4 getting such result..

crystal, u r useless

对不起

相信...
有很多种,
我要的不是物质上的相信..

我只想要有个一人可以让我很放心的去相信他..

对你,
在我选择了相信你时,
或许我早已相信你了..
我必须离你而去..

对不起
我对我所做的,所伤害的,所错的..
说声
对不起

水晶, 一直都是坏人

如果我的离开,可以为你解脱,我会离开...
请原谅我的懦弱

水晶再也变不回以前的水晶了

曾经，水晶并不是现在这个样..

很久以前，因为一些事，
水晶把它的心给丢了，
只要有心，它就会痛，它就会伤心

可是，
在水晶把痛，伤心给送走的同时，
水晶也把快乐，笑容给送走了..
从此，水晶便把它的笑容面具给戴上了..

很多人说，
水晶是个爱笑的女生，
可是，有谁知道水晶是真的开心还是假装的快乐

因为被伤害过，
水晶选择了不再去相信，

直到去年，
水晶遇到了他，
他让水晶相信了他，
他改变了水晶

水晶找回了快乐，笑容
可惜，最后..
他还是离开了水晶
一切的承诺都只不过是谎言

他让水晶以为它找回它的心，
可惜是个不完整的心..
他让水晶不知所措
水晶迷失了方向..

再一次的伤害，
让水晶失望了..

被同样的一班人伤害又伤害，
一次又一次的相信让水晶累了..
水晶想：“或许她们并不是我真正的朋友，毕竟真正的朋友并不容易找到..."
是时候放弃这段友情了，是时候离开了..
从此， 水晶就和她们越来越远了..

独自一个人，
除了寂寞了一点，没什么不好啊

不过，
水晶找到了一个弟弟..
一个对它很好的弟弟..
一个比亲弟弟还要亲的弟弟
一个可以让水晶相信的弟弟

可惜，
最近，水晶和它的弟弟
变质了..
到底 要如何做，才不会让水晶失去这个弟弟？
水晶在烦恼...

最近，
水晶遇上了另一个他，
水晶想对他说：
“对不起，因为我还不能完全相信你， 我害怕你会和他一样.."

水晶想要变回无心的水晶


续

JJ

2J
justin bieber n jaden smith
never say never
thumb up..
love it

hope u all lik it 2...

sorry

dear,
sorry 4 my childish
sorry 4 my selfish
sorry 4 wat i hav did wrongly..

tat day, i m angry of u..
dun noe wat d reason
i feel sad,
when i saw u on stage..
dun noe y,
i should feel hapi, coz tats ur 1st performance
but i feel sad, my heart tell me, it hurts

seem lik i reli gone sot jor..
time 2 repair

tat day, i din watch ur dance till d end,
i leave d hall half way,
i reli cnt stand it dy..
tats y i sent u a msg "sorry"

i try hard 2 stop d feeling,
run 2 lib..
try 2 make myself bc..
try 2 chat vf yixuan them..
try 2 act as normal..

i thk i done it veli well,
should i gv myself a clap..

tat few day, i reli sad..
alot of problems appear..
try 2 solve it
but failed..

anyway, nw it turn beta,
although i dun noe hv i solve d problem..

but i noe,
u r there 4 me..

i hope..

hope everythg will b fine...

i will wait until u recover..
no matter wat, i wun change my mind

if u dun wan, i will leave..
if u nid me, i always there 4 u

time will tell u everythg..
i wun find u anymore,
until u recover
sorry 4 hurting

i will always here 4 u, waiting u 2 recover..

reply

no reply..
u having ur dinner, i dun wan 2 disturb u..

congrate,
u won d match..
n u r d nxt Pre for MKT

2day, i couldnt watch ur match..
rushing to tt afta meeting,
try 2 search 4 u, when i at 4th floor,
but i failed, i cnt c u..

afta tt, i msg u..
i noe, u r hapi,
u won d match..
afta tat, u went out vf ur frenz, i thk..
u say u eating..
so, i ask u free oli msg me..

wait wait wait n wait again..
in d end, i msg u..
ask r u cuming out,
4 brazil n holland match,
i dun hav big hope on u out 2nite..
ya, reply cum,
ans cum
u r nt out 2nite..
nvm, i knew it b4 i msg u..

so, nw i at mc.d
vf wong xiong n others..

i m sorry,

nt hapi thg again,

i wil try 2 post smtg hapi nxt time,

to u:

dun worry,

dun sad,

i will b fine afta i wrote all out,

once i wrote it out,

i will 4get everythg..

friday

finally, 1week passed..
u will b performing tmw,
should i go?
i dunnoe,
my grandma is goin, i nid 2fetch my grandma,
i might stay vf jac jac..
but tats weird..
i dun hv ticket, i gv my ticket 2 my grandma dy..

tats ur 1st performance,
but i scare i will c smtg tat might make myself sad..
last time, i might nt sad..
but nw, i m abnormal d,
no longer a normal crystal..

should i go?

thursday

2day, m i ok?

i dun noe..

wat i noe is, when i wake up tis morning..

my eye swolen

dun ask me d reason,

there is only 2 posibility

i thk if u noe me well,

u wil noe d ans..

wear spec 2 skul 2day, rita's spec, white in colour..

v haven exchange bek..

i thk v nid 2 met 1day, so i cn return 2 u..
include ur twilight..

1st period, pa
copy notes
copy in slow speed, extreme slow..

2nd n 3rd period, muet
no mood 2 stdy
slp 4 tat 2 period..

4th n 5th period, fz
last part of chapter 8
again, i fall aslp..
but, even i din slp, i dun thk i still cn concentrate,
my mind is full..

reset time
i m sorry, 4 wasting food
but i reli lost my appetide

7th, 8th, 9th period, chemi
experiment..
peiyen join our class, but sorry
i reli nt in mood 2 help u..

10th period, tutorial
chemi tutorial..
carrie does nt attend class, she told me in lab..
but i din tell every1,
if i tell them, then every1 will skip tutorial

finally skul dismissal,
put my bag in car..
then go bek 2 basketball court, wait 4 peiyen..
she wan 2 buy a dress, 4 her sis wedding dinner
so, i acc her..
went 2 greentown..
i m sorry, i m nt in mood, tats y i din gv u muc opi..

sorry 2 every1, 4 my moody..