again n again

tis is nt d 1st time, u gals do tis 2 me...
do u noe, it reli hurts...
y m i so stupid, hurt by u all, again n again...
tis is nt d 1st time, but i still blif in u all...
n wat i get in d end is jus getting hurt by u all...

i shouldnt blif u gals, but dun noe y,
i hope u all will b different, will change...
everyday, think mani mani reason, 2 let myself 4giv u all...
"mayb u all hav ur reason, mayb u all oso dun wish 2 do so"
mayb, mayb, mayb n mayb...
mani mani mani reason,
2 bluff myself...

it reli hurts, do u noe???
tis is nt d 1st time, but i choose 2 blif n 4giv...
i reli a stupid gal...

again n again, my heart is nt complete anymore...
since tat day...
d scar will nvr recover 4ever, it will follow me...
even i thought d scar hav recover... but
act nt...
it is still there...
nvr recover...

tis few days, my mood reli go down alot,
without any reasons...
i still d same, always smile n b hapi as much as i cn, infront of them...
none of them noe, i jus fake a smile...

none of them noe it, but u noe it...
u say, u r d same kind of ppl, hapi when c from outside, but sad when c from inside..
tat day, u ask me: ' isit correct?'
i reli dunnoe hw 2 ans...
there is no1 noe it b4... u r d 1st person noe it...

it is tired 2 fake a smile, or hard...
always act hapi, will 4get wat is hapi...
soon, jus 4get,
when r u reli hapi, n when r u acting 2 b hapi...

tat day, u msg me... n v chat mani thg...
i told u a bit of d incident, but i din told u all,
i reli din hav d strength 2 say it out, it reli hurts...
u say u wont b lik them, hurt me or betray me but protect me...
u ask me 2 trust u...
tat day, i reli wan 2 cry d,
luckily, i nod 2 go out 4 kbox, so i jus end our convo...

do u noe, sum time i reli hate u,
u jus act lik a normal frenz 2 me,
but sumtime u care me more than a normal frenz will do,
do u noe tats will make me confused...
everyday, i wish 2 c u, but once i saw u,
u jus lik a stranger 2 me..

hu u r act? y u noe so mani thg... hu u r?

days passed

new system started 2 days,
half died, 3.40 pm skul dismissal..
almost almost 10hours per day...

time increase, hmk increase, stress increase...
reli hate tis system...
wat a stupid system...

pangkor

i din on9 4 sumtime, hw long leh?
mayb 1weeks...

mani thg 2 do 4 d pass few days...
go out vf my frenz 4 movie, chitchating, window shoping,K, n do mani mani thg 2 gether
then go PANGKOR
vf mr.O, ah hoe, chui, ice lemon tea (ben) n his wife...
quite enjoy d pangkor trip...

v played at d beach awhile, most of d time at swimming pool.. haha, Y?
coz d sea water veli...
it make me feel lik soak in d concentrated salt water...haha
so,v played at d beach 4 awhile,
then v dcide 2 go bak 2 d resort...n continue in d swiming pool...
haha, geng leh... go pangkor, but swim in d swiming pool...

i having a flu tat nite, after d swim... har-chui~
hehe...luckily, i bring sum medi...
so, i feel better after taken d medi...hehe

after tat, v went 4 dinner... SEAFOOD, 1 of my fav
after d dinner, v went 4 a walk at d beach... n mr.O bought sum souvenir
then v went bak 2 hotel, coz i feel iche, mayb of d sea water (mr.O say d)
i hav a deep deep clean/bath... okie, better than b4...
then v continue our plan, go 4 K...( mrs. Ben wan 2 K, then v go lo)
sudenly, a call from Ben.. haha, he feel iche 2, wan 2 hav a bath,
so v delay our plan till 9.00pm
9++pm, v go 4 K...
wah, mrs Ben hav a nice voice...( or great voice)
after she sang her song, all of us so paiseh 2 sing jor... haha...
but v paid jor 100 bucks for 2 hours leh...
can not can not, paiseh oso mus sing ar...
haha...

after K, almost 12am, but d sky is nt veli dark..
mayb of d moonlight... it is d full moon nite...
v went 4 a walk at d beach... d light cum from d other island,
so beautiful..
but i dun noe where is it...

after d walk, v walk bk 2 d resort... so tired...
but v still play stack... swt, rite?
tired, but still play game.. but
after 2 game, all of us surrender...so, in d end..
SLEEP

d nxt day, went 4 breakfast... then hav a swim
in d swiming pool again... haha
after tat, hav a ride around d area vf 2bucks bicycle
OMG, d bicycle choose by mr.ben 4 me...
no air, no air, no air, d bicycle no air ( y dun i sing "no air" tat time, haha)
after d ride, went bak 2 resort, pack out thg, n check out then say 88 2 pangkor...

when v reach jeti over lumut, mr.O go 2 take his car...
wakakaka... one of d tyre of his car no air ( haha, again no air no air no air)
then, he change d tyre, but d tyre is extreme small compare 2 d other, haha...
since his car unbalance, he ask me n ah hoe go vf ben's car...
haha... so freakkk, when both of us in ben car..
n tis coz my CRAB ran away from me...
coz b4 tat v dcide 2 have lunch at lumut, n hav CRABBBBB
but mr.O car....haiz...
T_T my crabbbbbb

anyway, v have our "lunch" 2gether oso
at 4smtg pm
at gunung rapat kopitiam N
without mr ben n mrs ben... hehe...

so, it cum 2 d end 4 my pangkor trip... i reli enjoy it, n veli hapi...
i will nvr 4get it... so muc incident hapen, haha...
* most important is,
d 1st time i get so serious d sunburn... n it reli hurt...
so so so so so PAIN, hehe...