a huge boom 4 me

a bad news,
extreme bad...
it jus make me...
more moody,more frustrated n bad mood...

"FORM 6 GOING 2 CHANGE"
4pm finish skul from monday till friday...
whoa, it jus lik semesters style...
(so gud... wat i think when i 1st noe it)
but later on...
when i noe d stpm exam is still d same...
it nt lik exam in colleges, separate into 2...
then d oli thg i think bout is DIE
jus lik wat my cousin say,
SEKALI GUS, KALAU GAGAL, MATILAH!!!

i reli hate it...
if u wan 2 follow semester style, jau follow all la,
copy half dun copy half...
reli !#!$#@#@%!!@#!#
( pls 4give me bcoz i use bad words, but i reli cnt stand it anymore..)

its reli make me angry n havin mani others bad feeling
i jus noe wat i wish 2 do is escape from here...
but, my legs jus stick here n cnt take a step 2 others place...
i jus dun noe wat is happening 2 me... freak...
haiz...

2day is my WORST day

another week passed, skul started 4 2weeks oredi,
but...
i still cn fit vf it..

dun noe wat is happening, everythg jus gone wrong,
n d worse is...
i dun noe hw 2 fix it bac 2 normal

days passed,
but..
i still dun noe wat m i doing,
m i goin 2 d rite pathway?
or d wrong pathway...

cn any1 tell me...

M I GOIN 2 THE WRONG WAY?

Is it a wrong decision?

11th of may
1st day of skul at a totally new skul..
haiz.. nt a reli gud day 4 me,
dun ask me y, i oso dun noe...
it jus nt a gud day...

dun noe wat happen, jus feel smtg wrong...
mayb there is smtg hapen tat make me unhapi,
but i choose nt 2 rmb it...
so jus dun noe wat happen...

even skul started for 1 week n 1day oredi,
stil d same, unhapi...
mayb....
mayb bcoz fann is nt there anymore,
mayb bcoz peiyen n i nt in d same class, nt in same stream
mayb bcoz d new evironment
mayb bcoz it is stressfull
mayb bcoz i m nt willing 2 study f6
mayb bocz tat iccident make me different
mayb mayb mayb, there is still a lot of mayb...

but 4 me,
there is no hapi day, since i enter d skul...

MAYB, i have made a wrong dicision...

Fann is leaving...

2day went 2 fann hse at ipoh garden,
walau, so far!!!
but nvm la, she goin 2 leave 4 matrix...
if dun meet her nw, dun noe when oli cn meet...
i think i will miss her alot.. probably...
in netball, i trust her d most...
mayb she is d oli frenz in netball, there r no 1 i cn blif,
mayb other of them still my frenz... but i jus scare they r nt...

tat incident...
make me change alot...
its tell me, nt 2 trust ppl 2 muc...

haiz... tis is life...

my 2nd genting trip...

last day of april n 1st day of may...
i went 2 genting again...but tis time vf my aunt
my aunt buy 2 ticket 4 d lunch banquet of her company... 22th anniversary
act my aunt wan 2 go vf my mom, but my mom nt free, so she ask my grandma 2 go...
but too bad, my grandma oso nt feeling well, so...
my mon ask me 2 go, T.T
so charm... so boring over there... ntg 2 do

30th april
going from ipoh at 9smtg morning... so slpy, n hungry coz i din take my breakfast
then wat 2 do? slp lo...slp in bus...
after reached genting, v went to casino, d driver help them 2 register 2 enter casino, then d man sudden say : " hey, gal! u oli 18, cnt go in casino"
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! swt X100
i luk lik veli old meh? y u think i old enuf 2 enter casino, T.T
then suan lo, nvm, fine...
after tat v went 2 put our luggage at d counter, haha, d bell boy so funny,
he ask me, m i leaving or jus reach? so, i ans him, i jus reach oli...
then, he ask me out at d nite, when i free.. O.O doingel...
i din ans him, d oli thg i cn do is.. hehe :)
after tat, my aunt went 2 casino, i cnt go in, so wat 2 do?
jus do smtg shopping lo, n sms my cousin, disturb him lo, haha...
walau, my cousin so sot til ask my bank account num... wat he wan 2 do?
he wan 2 transfer $$ 2 me, reli sot d, luckily i din giv him d num...
after tat, yeah.. 4pm,. cn check in d...
so v went 2 collect our thg n check in lo...
then, i hav sum reading on twilight in d room...
Edward Cullen make cnt stop reading it... haha...
then my aunt ask me bath... she is hungry woh, wan 2 go 4 dinner...
ok, went 2 bath lo...
then went 4 dinner then a little shopping...
brought :
mascara
cute paper clip 4 Rita, Kei Kei, Suki n Joe-l
make up remover
chocolate

1st of may
morning, hav breakfast...
then went bak 2 room, pack my thg n prepare 4 lunch bonquet...
then 11smtg went down 2 check out, n put out luggage at d counter...
so boring d lunch bonquet, even tought it hav sum artist performance, but oso sien... coz i dun noe hu d artists r...
finally, d lunch bonquet end at, 4sumtg, n our bus cum at 5pm...
so great, i cn go home jor...
it is time 2 say gudbye 2 genting again, haha...

then around 8.30pm reach ipoh... so TIRED...
but it oso a fun trip too, hehe ^^