wat a day

wat a day i hav..
tt in d morning, slp 4 almost half class
afta tat, go my grandma there,
thought cn c my little cousin n make myself feel beta,
but he slpin when i reach,
afta tat, i stay 4 awhile jiu bek hum,
prepare 2 go swimin,i nid water..
but wat i get, rain..
when d rain get smaller, start my car, heading 2 stadium..
half way, a msg from my di,
stadium is close 4 hari raya..
wat da du...
arent hari raya is jus 2days, hw come 2day is holiday..
tis so call m'sia boleh..
i reli 'luv' here so muc..

okie, i noe,
2day my mood reli pretty nt gud..
mayb i should say, tis few day oso dun feel gud..
dun noe when it started,
i dun lik 2 smile,
wat u all c, is a fake smile,
a fake smile that i always hav..

a mask on my face,
i cnt take it off..
n nw, i m tired of wearing it dy..
cn any1 tell me hw 2 take it off?

累了,
什么都不想要了,

只想要有个人
在我伤心时，安慰我..
在我寂寞时，抱抱我..

只想要有个人
可以静静地陪着我，
让我有个肩膀可以依靠..

当我想你时，
你不在了..

我需要你时，
你却离开了..

到后来，
我依然是一个人..

i miss u,
do u know?

teardrop silently

sorry 4 nt understanding..
nvr understand, nvr thk of others
tis is wat i always did,
tis is y i kip hurtin others..

sorry
dun noe wat i hav did,
coz i nvr thk bout,
but i noe,
i m did wrongly

i always make mistake

when u nid me, i m nt there..
mayb, u dun nid me at all..

whenever i nid sum1, u r there 4 me,
but nw,
i dun noe is there any1 4 me anymore..

alone again..
but i used 2 it, last time
i wil used 2 it again, i thk..
mayb

i m worry,
scare,
but u no longer there

担心的，总算发生了
或许，早已发生了，
只是自己骗自己...

要继续， 还是停止

该这么办...

otokajo

11.34pm
time 2 slp
but i stil here

wastin my time..

cnt focus on study,
there is smtg distracting my mind..

it disturbing my lifestlye..
cnt concentrate on study,
cnt slp at nite,
cnt concentrate on everythg..
no matter wat i doin, it jus kip cuming 2 my mind,
n disturbing my mind..

wat should i do,
2 kip u away..

i thk i should kip myself away from u,
try nt 2 search 4 u
try nt 2 thk of u
mayb,
i should avoid any contact vf u
jus lik wat r u doin nw ( i thk u r.. )

try hard, but i failed

stupid chemi,
d more i memorise,
d least i rmb..
wat a brain i hav..
arrrrrrrrrr...

alkane:
free radical substitution

alkene:
electrophilic addition

haloalkane:
nucleophilic substitution

benzene:
electophilic substitution

alcohol:
reaction of breaking OH bond
reaction vf HX
dehydration
n etc..

those stupid reaction stil cn separate into mani type..
n nw, i mixed up all d..
esp nucleophilic substitution, electrophilic substitution, electrophilic addition..
ya, there are diff..
n muc muc diff
reactant diff,
catalyst diff,
condition diff,
product diff..

i wan 2 faint dy...